It’s Official – I’ve Lost My Mind

Oh. My. GOD!!!

So I just emailed this private dance studio not far from my work place. I’ve been searching for hip-hop classes for my daughter and I’ve found a lot of these private dance studios that not only do hip-hop but dabble in k-pop hip-hop.

The only challenge was finding most places create ‘teams’ for actual amateur dance competitions.

Heeeell NO!!! So not what she is looking for! She just wants to do this for fun.

This studio has a drop-in class schedule with classes ranging from Level 0 to Level 2. Obviously, Level 0 meant for beginners. Though I have an inkling it’s not going to be filled with beginners. As always, you’re going to find a class filled with a variety of levels depending how long people have been dropping in on said class. Still, you can either pay as you go ($15 per class) or buy 12, 24, 48 classes per card, thereby saving more money in the end. I’m sure there’s a time limit. For example, all 12 classes must be taken within a 6 month period. It’s still promising though – there’s at least 2 or 3 beginner classes each week to choose from. And it allows some flexibility with our schedule.

It peaked my curiosity, alright? And you know what they say. Curiosity killed the Cat.

I’m not saying I’m going to die. But my body is not like what it used to be so. So yeah. I’ve decided I’m going to do this with my daughter.

I’m both excited and nervous. More excited than nervous. I mean, if history should repeat itself, I’ve often been able to catch on with new choreography. The nervousness is just based on the fact I have not taken any dance classes for so long. The last time I did was to learn Latin Ballroom.

Of course, I’ll update my progress here but – wish me luck! My daughter will not have time to do this until after her science project is done and she really wants us to do this together! I think it will be fun. 🙂


Recognizing Proud Moments

As a parent, as a Chinese parent, I’ve been raised to put a lot of emphasis on academia. It’s in my blood – it’s natural. Even though I was born and raised here in Canada, that part was ingrained into me – albeit I’m a more water-down version of my parents.

And I do put emphases on academia. I have. Quite a bit. To the point where I find myself getting anxious over my daughter’s grades. I realized I needed to chill out a bit, though. While it’s still my job to ensure she is doing well in school (i.e. performing well, not failing, being respectful to peers and teachers, etc.) I also did not want to pass my anxieties on to her. She is becoming her own person and needs to take her own accountability on such matters. It’s a work in progress – I’m not perfect and I slip back to old habits. More than I would like to admit.

There are, as I have discovered many times in my near 14 years of raising her, moments that have nothing to do with academia but still, I find myself in awe with how much she surprises me – and how much she makes me proud.

Over the weekend, her and I were talking. And yes, of course it was about k-pop. And of course it was about her favorite idols. These days it seems most of our conversations start with k-pop though it may end elsewhere only to return to k-pop.

A friend of her at school was saying how she would not be happy if she found out her idol was gay simply because she respects her idol so much, if they are gay, then she would feel let down.

Yeah. Pretty homophobic statement. I am not completely surprised though. It’s a private school and a LOT of the parents are ultra-conservative and not open to accepting different lifestyles than their own. Which makes it difficult for me to make new friends among them. I am the black sheep, after all. I’m THAT parent. Whom doesn’t bat an eye if I find my daughter using curse words (we’ve talked about it – I tell her I don’t mind so long as she is responsible with how she uses curse words). I’m the one that sends her daughter beautiful photos of her bias, Kim Taehyung just to torture her for my amusement. And I’m that parent who wouldn’t care if her child comes out one day to me, stating she is gay or bisexual, etc. I’ve always told her such things do not matter to me or her father so long as she is happy and not hurting herself or anyone else. We’ve always done our best to raise her with a good heart and not to judge others on such things – because what is there to judge?

I’m that parent. In a world where we are increasingly becoming more progressive and open, it’s amazing that in a big city such as Toronto, I’m still finding myself, in such moments, as the minority. Why is that?

Anyway – so my daughter said she had a disagreement with said friend. She tried to reason with her but the disagreement started to escalate so my daughter dropped it. It was in class and she didn’t want to start a heated and loud argument.

So here’s where I can breakdown how proud I felt:

  1. She was confident with her stance.
  2. She tried to reason with her friend.
  3. She did not let her friend, whom she cares for dearly, to sway her beliefs.
  4. When the situation started to escalate, she knew when to bow out and keep the peace.
  5. She came to me and told me about this conversation – not to be praised but just to share with me what happened between her and her friend.

I would like to say I am responsible for her level of maturity. Because even as an adult, I don’t think I could have kept as level headed as she did. That was all her.

Not-So Daily Kpop Challenge – Part XV

[30 Day K-Pop Challenge]

Day 30: A k-pop idol that has amazing eye smiles

Well, that’s easy. Park Jimin! In fact, the reason he’s my ultimate bias (from BTS or any k-pop group) is because of the way his whole face just lights up when he smiles! Especially in his eyes – they’re almost dancing when he’s happy! It is such a charming feature. And I really hope he’s as happy as he looks!

It’s not just his smile, though. When he laughs he often throws his whole body into it! And the sound of his laugh is so adorable. Seriously – I can see why Taehyung wants to protect Jimin. Sometimes, he laughs with such ferocity, he disappears from the screen. Or falls onto one of his Bangtan family members. 🙂 Bless him though – he’s the only one who cracks up at Jin’s dad jokes.


And there’s the end of my 30 Day K-pop Challenge! It was fun and allowed me to get through a very stressful month (as January always is when it comes to my workload).

Not-So Daily Kpop Challenge – Part XIV

[30 Day K-Pop Challenge]

Day 29: A k-pop song you never get tired of


I will never get tired of FIRE. And because I’ve already posted the original music video, the choreography music video AND the dance practice – of FIRE – I’m posting one of my favorite live performances that I’ve seen thus far. The beginning with V symbolically taking Jin to the dark side (I viewed it as the fallen angel enticing the other angel to join him like he’s dragging him down to hell) gives me chills each time. Our talented Taehyung is quite the skillful actor.

It’s hard for me, though, to answer this question fairly. I’m known to drift from a favorite song just for a break but always return to it. Having said that, I have listened to FIRE at least once a day since I discovered it.

I think a close 2nd is EXO’s Ko Ko Bop which is, by far, my favorite EXO song:

I admit the music video is one of the reasons I love listening to Ko Ko Bop. It’s aesthetically a great visual. And while, except for Kai, I’m not at all attracted to EXO members, I love their style in this video! Yeol gets up and personal with the camera during his rap segments. Baekhyun just looks so cool throughout the entire video – he just has that look regardless but even more so in Ko Ko Bop. D.O. had some nice shots, too. And I was impressed with Sehun’s hair – it really suited him.

Not-So Daily Kpop Challenge – Part XIII

[30 Day K-Pop Challenge]

Day 27: Favorite dance battle

I don’t know many dance battles so I’m going to the very first one I watched. It was significant because at the time, I didn’t know BTS very well. From Dream Concert 2015, I watched J-Hope do an incredible dance battle with GOT7’s YuGyeom.

They were both unbelievably good. But I recall I didn’t know who J-Hope was at the time and had to look him up. I just remember thinking, “Wow – who is THAT? He’s amazing!” I recently watched that dance-off again – still a great moment to watch.

Day 28: Favorite cover of an American song done by a k-pop artist

I know Jungkook is known for so many cover songs but the one which stands out most, personally, is Taehyung’s cover for Adele’s Someone Like You:

I’m a huge fan of Taehyung’s deep and sultry voice. I’m hoping for another solo from him!