some random updates:
i tripped and fell right over at work last thursday. and it has to do with the fact that i have not had time to go shopping (nor have the money) for myself. any pants i’m wearing is depending on the one belt i have to keep people from seeing what colour of underwear i’m wearing that day.
so i was wearing this one with big cuffs on the bottom. i was in a rush and accidentally got my heel from one foot caught in the cuff of the opposite leg.
i don’t think i need to further explain what happened right then and there. lets just say that i was lying flat on my face with co-workers rushing over in extreme fear that i had broken my ankle or something.
i was fine, really. just a very hurt ego and a suffering of extreme embarrassment. my glasses, btw, also flew off and i had to ask my co-worker closest to me to help me fetch it.
it’s hard to find one’s glasses when there’s no way of knowing which way it flung to – being blind as a bat doesn’t help either.
you would think that this would be the worst part of the story but no… because you see, this EXACT same thing happened last year which prompted me to remind myself back then that i can’t wear those pants anymore.
last year, no one saw me fall so it wasn’t as bad. you would think that the stinging of that fall would have taught me a lesson. but… i conveniently forgot about it. sure, i did remember some odd memory nagging me at the back of my mind to not wear those pants. i’m not sure what the reason is here – old age or selective memory?
unfortunately, it was only after the repeat, REPLICATED accident in which i remembered why.
hobbes is a unique dog. he’s smart. too smart. about twice a week, at most, we leave him in his kennel during the day. as i prepare the kennel before leaving – with his water bowl and toys – he will go right inside afterwards to retrieve any and all of the toys, all the while whining away.
it’s like a protest – “the toys stay out and SO DO I!”
i admit my blog entries have been incredibly boring. that’s probably because i have no life outside of chauffering both a kid and dog around, as well as devote all my free time to my household where everything is mainly about them and very little about me.
i sound bitter, don’t i? i probably am. but you have to believe me – i’m trying to get over it and bring back a more positive attitude.
i’m just grumpy because it was a tough morning – and i didn’t need that on my first day back to work after my vacation.
the thing is, though, that i know i am blessed with the family, friends, a dog that seems to outsmart me, manager and even some co-workers that help to keep me sane on a day to day basis. money and time is extremely tight these days – but all in all, we are still wealthy in the grand scheme of things. perhaps not monetary wealth and while money is important, it’s not the key to happiness.
it’s just been really hard to catch my breath. if it’s not one thing, it’s another – one crisis is over and another one takes it’s place. i’m getting better at rolling with the punches but there are days where it’s just very dark for me – like i wonder how long i can keep going like this.
doug, however, gave me a card on monday – a little something to wish me a happy anniversary.
and while my husband is not one of many words, he does seem to find the right type of card with just the perfect saying very fitting of whatever moment of our lives we find ourselves battling in.
anyway, i don’t have the card with me. i wish i did. i would write it out here, word for word. but basically, it said that no matter how crazy life is, we’ll pull through it together. and that regardless, he’s happy to be having this life with me.
it was EXACTLY the descriptive words needed to shed some light into much frustration and sorrow i’ve been experiencing.
i found the card on my pillow – i was alone when i read it and i balled my eyes out because i was just so touched by it.