as much as i love my daughter, i realize that i haven't had time for just doug and i. or for myself. the last time i had chaeli sleep over at the grandparental units, it was because i was on a business trip and doug's early hours do not go well with when chaeli starts daycare.
i can tell that i need to set up another sleepover because i'm a lot less patient with her. and i get easily worn-out whenever she is around me too much at a time. i can't explain it. it's like i just want to shout at the top of my lungs, "PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ALONE TIME!"
it's one of those things as parents. it's not that we want to feel this way, but it's amazing how easy these moments can catch us off guard. and it's got nothing to do with how much we love them. but when we're always on the go, sometimes, it is nice to just be left alone. and i'm the type of person, if given an evening to myself, can easily just zone out without saying a word for a few hours. i love it. it recharges my batteries.
i suppose this won't last forever. when she's older and more self-sufficient, it won't always be like this.
i remember when she was a toddler, i had many more frustrating moments like these but now that she is six, it's already easier. (i also had postpartum depression so that did not kick-start parenting in a positive way).
i think, though, i do need a date night with my husband. i've been so busy lately, i can't even remember the last time him and i had time together. maybe in a couple of weeks, i'll arrange for doug and i to have a date.